Working on me

I did another 2 miles today.  I am hoping to make it 2.5 next week and would love to see myself at 5 miles a day by the time may rolls around and I have my 5K.  I hate it.  I'm not going to lie.  I have never achieved a runner's high.  I hate getting sweaty and my legs hurt every day.  But I know that it is what I have to do to reach my goal.  And once I've showered and rested I do feel good about myself.  I feel good that I got through the whole day eating well.  I feel accomplished that I ran two miles AND did a workout.  I am taking these steps to be a better version of myself.  My friend Lauren today said I am a whole different person and even though sometimes it feels I am exactly the same, I hope she's right.  I hope that I am becoming the person that I want to be.  The person I see when I look at my best self.  Still me but someone who accomplishes what she sets out to do.

I started planning today too.  I have been getting stressed trying to juggle everyone else's schedules and trying to figure out when to do stuff that works for everyone involved in our cogwheel.  And I have a few short weeks before I am headed home for a visit and then just another four weeks after I get back before out big move.  There is so much to think about, figure out and do before these dates arrive that I have to buckle down and do it. 
So I talked to steph about some of my frustrations which I realized helped a lot.  I realized that I wasn't really angry just stressed and confused and I realized that a lot of the pressure I feel is self inflicted.  If I hadn't talked it out with her I think I would have continued being frustrated and keep blaming her for my stress rather than handling things myself.  I want to accomplish a lot on my bucket list and my travel list so it is important to start now because the time is getting away from me quickly.  SO the next couple months will be jam packed with lots of fun activities and adventures.  I'll be sure to keep you posted.